As Time Goes By, Foolish Games

Today I met up with someone whom I think if most of my friends knew, would raise an eyebrow and go "ooohhhh...why?"

It was for work people :)

He told me about the new developments in his life, his new house and events. I felt happy for him..truly...that he has finally found some peace and progress in his life.

I think sometimes it is after a long time that you realised how much you really care about someone. Never mind the relationship was not worth it, never mind he was not worth it (so they say), never mind the pain, never mind the tears...when you take all that away... all that's left is just pure care and love... some call it stupidity.

When he told me about his life, I didn't feel any jealousy or resentment. I felt peace and true gladness for him. There are some people whom you will feel you were meant to meet in your life, where that encounter changes the course of your life. That was one.

There were times where I asked myself if I would have preferred not to. A part of me would have wanted to spare myself the pain and all the other pains that followed. I might have been happier living in the old life. I might even be preparing for a wedding today.

Alas, we shall not lament on things we cannot change.

He taught me the possibility of possibility and the importance of dreams. What he could not teach me was how to live with it. At the end of it all, I think the road, while bumpy, taught me more than any book could. I can't say it was all good but it was a one way road. You never look back.

Just when you think you can't love more than you ever knew, you can be proven wrong. Just when you think you know, you realise you don't know at all. I can't say I can look back at all that happened and say I am proud of it. Yet, the journey was far from boring. I am just waiting to see where it all leads.

An old song filled the silence in the car...It was nice listening to it with the rain outside pattering on the window...

Foolish Games

You took your coat off and stood in the rain
You were always crazy like that..
I watched from my window
Always felt I was outside looking in on you..
You were always the mysterious one
with dark eyes and careless hair
You were fashionably sensitive, but too cool to care

You stood in my doorway,with nothing to say
Besides some comment on the weather..
Well in case you failed to notice,
in case you failed to see
This is my heart bleeding before you,
this is me down on my knees..

These foolish games are tearing me apart..
And your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart

You were always brilliant in morning
Smoking your cigarettes and talking over coffee
Your philosophies on art,Baroque moved you
You loved Mozart and you'd speak of your loved ones
As I clumsily strummed my guitar..

Well, excuse me,
guess I've mistakenyou for somebody else
Somebody who gave a damn,
somebody more like myself

These foolish games are tearing me apart
You're tearing me, tearing me,
tearing me apart..
And your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart

You took off your coat and stood in the rain
You were always crazy like that...

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