It's been a number of days since my last entry. Well I prefer to write when there's something to write, share, mull or think about :)
An incident happened yesterday and it was kinda uncanny how things happened. I think God was trying to send me a not so gentle reminder :P
I realised how fragile humans can be. I realised how sometimes things can hit you so suddenly and you won't even have time or ability to react. I realised the importance of looking out for your health and the importance of insurance! Not professional hazard people..it really is. I realised if any small factor had changed, the outcome might have been totally different.
More than ever, I believe everyone has a certain timing in life. I kinda felt at some point that it was not death that was fearful but the absence of a meaningful and purposeful life that was truly scary.
I believe everyone has a purpose in life. A job, role or whatever you call it for his or her existence in the world. Some seem greater than the others but I always felt everyone's role and contribution was important in some way, no matter how small it seemed. Without everyone's part, there will be no world.
Sometimes I think when life comes to an end, it simply means one has finished the task that he or she was supposed to do. If the job was not finished, it means it was time for someone else to take over.
Many of us put away the things we want to do because we think it may involve certain risks. I have no doubt at all we should cherish ourselves and protect ourselves from risk. A certain part of me believes, if it's your time, it doesn't matter whether you were jumping off a plane or just sitting down at home. When it's time, it's time.
Kinda philosophical huh? :P
Sunday, May 28, 2006
Sunday, May 21, 2006
Spiral
I remember one scene from Mr & Mrs Smith or was it another movie in which one party said.."We are separated by the world of things we do not say to each other." (something along those lines)
How do things get worse between people? Because things that should have been said and done were not and those that were should not have been said or done, were committed instead?
There were times why I wondered why and how things got so bad. There were also times I was asked why and how it got so bad. I never had it got this bad. I have heard stories where things never got this bad. Sometimes I am envious. In a way I could claim some responsibility but most of the time, I do not really have the answers myself. I hate to be the only one wondering so I accepted it as it was.
It's said that one should communicate. Sometimes it hurts us the most when you see the people you care about the most lose their souls. What if the thing you wish to communicate is so hard to say? What if you knew the thing you wanted to say would not be heard? What if you knew the thing you wanted to say will hurt? Will you still want to communicate?
Anyway, a simple, moving song...
Always On Your Side
- Sheryl Crow & Sting
My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away
But every now and then you come to mind
Cause you were always waiting to be picked to play the game
But when your name was called, you found a place to hide
When you knew that I was always on your side
Well everything was easy then, so sweet and innocent
But your demons and your angels reappeared
Leavin' all the traces of the man you thought you'd be
Leavin' me with no place left to go from here
Leavin' me so many questions all these years
But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
This isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be
Well they say that love is in the air, but never is it clear,
How to pull it close and make it stay
Butterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away
And I'm left to carry on and wonder why
Even through it all, I'm always on your side
How do things get worse between people? Because things that should have been said and done were not and those that were should not have been said or done, were committed instead?
There were times why I wondered why and how things got so bad. There were also times I was asked why and how it got so bad. I never had it got this bad. I have heard stories where things never got this bad. Sometimes I am envious. In a way I could claim some responsibility but most of the time, I do not really have the answers myself. I hate to be the only one wondering so I accepted it as it was.
It's said that one should communicate. Sometimes it hurts us the most when you see the people you care about the most lose their souls. What if the thing you wish to communicate is so hard to say? What if you knew the thing you wanted to say would not be heard? What if you knew the thing you wanted to say will hurt? Will you still want to communicate?
Anyway, a simple, moving song...
Always On Your Side
- Sheryl Crow & Sting
My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away
But every now and then you come to mind
Cause you were always waiting to be picked to play the game
But when your name was called, you found a place to hide
When you knew that I was always on your side
Well everything was easy then, so sweet and innocent
But your demons and your angels reappeared
Leavin' all the traces of the man you thought you'd be
Leavin' me with no place left to go from here
Leavin' me so many questions all these years
But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
This isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be
Well they say that love is in the air, but never is it clear,
How to pull it close and make it stay
Butterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away
And I'm left to carry on and wonder why
Even through it all, I'm always on your side
Saturday, May 20, 2006
Chance Encounter
Ah I have not written for a number of days.
I met someone last night. Someone I never thought I'd see again. Someone I have wondered for a long time how he was. Frankly it's a chance encounter that almost never happened.
He has changed a lot. Certainly not as before but hey so have I changed.
I realised how much I have changed over the years. I used to be so young and wanted different things. The essence remained but I realised the package that I used to want in a man has definitely changed.
I realised how the men in my life the last few years have introduced new passions (no pun intended) in my life which frankly makes it hard for me to date a normal Singaporean man. Yet I don't dig foreigners. It's a dilemma really.
I realised I like my men to have a tinge of difference about them. Something that makes them so different from the normal Singaporean man. It didn't help that my ex (if you can call him one) was strong in this department because he was well read and had a hunger for the world. It kinda sets a certain erm should I call it, standard? This tinge of difference has become a certain source of passion and maybe grief. Even my friends agree on this matter. The typical man on the street is not really my type.
I have also realised how non-chalant I have become with regards to these matters. I am frankly, not very motivated to take action. I prefer to let things come as they are. Passive? Perhaps.
I realised its true...fate works that if you truly meant to meet, you will, no matter how long it takes. What may not work today may work few years down the road. It may never work of course but that's fate.
The girl has grown up for sure.
On a not so grown up note..
Julio & Dino Twin brothers Julio and Dino Acconci (Soler) were born and raised in Macau. They both speak and sing in 7 languages, including: English, Cantonese, Mandarin, Italian, Spanish, Portugese and French. To sum up Soler in a word it would be "live." First communicators, then musicians. Their music is direct, coming straight from the soul. Drawing on influences ranging from soul music to rock, they have evolved into a sound best described as pop rock with a
touch of soul. They are signed to Hummingbird Music Ltd
My gal friend says they make her melt. No darling I don't feel no stirring in my loins and they say I have a thing for bad boys. Just look at my guys..most of them are geeky even the most so called bad boy looking one. But it is quite incredible that these Latino lookin men have a CANTONESE rock album. SEVEN languages is a mean feat indeed! Maybe I need to MEET them *hint hint* Or perhaps serenade me with a Spanish or French song and THAT will make me melt :D *puddle*
I met someone last night. Someone I never thought I'd see again. Someone I have wondered for a long time how he was. Frankly it's a chance encounter that almost never happened.
He has changed a lot. Certainly not as before but hey so have I changed.
I realised how much I have changed over the years. I used to be so young and wanted different things. The essence remained but I realised the package that I used to want in a man has definitely changed.
I realised how the men in my life the last few years have introduced new passions (no pun intended) in my life which frankly makes it hard for me to date a normal Singaporean man. Yet I don't dig foreigners. It's a dilemma really.
I realised I like my men to have a tinge of difference about them. Something that makes them so different from the normal Singaporean man. It didn't help that my ex (if you can call him one) was strong in this department because he was well read and had a hunger for the world. It kinda sets a certain erm should I call it, standard? This tinge of difference has become a certain source of passion and maybe grief. Even my friends agree on this matter. The typical man on the street is not really my type.
I have also realised how non-chalant I have become with regards to these matters. I am frankly, not very motivated to take action. I prefer to let things come as they are. Passive? Perhaps.
I realised its true...fate works that if you truly meant to meet, you will, no matter how long it takes. What may not work today may work few years down the road. It may never work of course but that's fate.
The girl has grown up for sure.
On a not so grown up note..
Julio & Dino Twin brothers Julio and Dino Acconci (Soler) were born and raised in Macau. They both speak and sing in 7 languages, including: English, Cantonese, Mandarin, Italian, Spanish, Portugese and French. To sum up Soler in a word it would be "live." First communicators, then musicians. Their music is direct, coming straight from the soul. Drawing on influences ranging from soul music to rock, they have evolved into a sound best described as pop rock with a
touch of soul. They are signed to Hummingbird Music Ltd
My gal friend says they make her melt. No darling I don't feel no stirring in my loins and they say I have a thing for bad boys. Just look at my guys..most of them are geeky even the most so called bad boy looking one. But it is quite incredible that these Latino lookin men have a CANTONESE rock album. SEVEN languages is a mean feat indeed! Maybe I need to MEET them *hint hint* Or perhaps serenade me with a Spanish or French song and THAT will make me melt :D *puddle*
Sunday, May 14, 2006
Anger Management
I must admit while I can be amazingly patient at times, my temper is usually shorter than what I'd like it to be. As humans, we tend to be affected by other people's insults, criticisms and so on. I read a short story that I'd like to share here. I found it to be simple yet interesting food for thought.
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Once there was a Brahmin, a person of high rank and authority. This Brahmin had a habit of getting angry, even for no reason. He quarrelled with everyone. If someone else was wronged and did not get angry, the Brahmin would get angry at that person for not being angry.
The Brahmin had heard that the Buddha never got angry. One day he went to the Buddha and abused him with insults. The Buddha listened compassionately and patiently. Then he asked the Brahmin, "Do you have any family or friends or relatives?"
"Yes, I have many relatives and friends", the Brahmin replied.
"Do you visit them periodically?" the Buddha asked.
"Of course. I visit them often. "
"Do you carry gifts for them when you visit them?"
"Surely. I never go to see them without a gift," said the Brahmin.
The Buddha asked, "When you give gifts to them, suppose they do not accept them. What would you do with these gifts?"
"I would take them hone and enjoy them with my family." answered the Brahmin.
Then the Buddha said,"Similarly, friend, you gave me a gift. I do not accept it. It is all yours. Take it home and enjoy it with your family."
The man was deeply embarrased. He understood and admired the Buddha's compassionate advice.
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Maybe I was reading too fast but it took me a few seconds to absorb the story. I think it's a nice way of dealing with anger and mindless negativity. Hope this is useful to you too :)
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Once there was a Brahmin, a person of high rank and authority. This Brahmin had a habit of getting angry, even for no reason. He quarrelled with everyone. If someone else was wronged and did not get angry, the Brahmin would get angry at that person for not being angry.
The Brahmin had heard that the Buddha never got angry. One day he went to the Buddha and abused him with insults. The Buddha listened compassionately and patiently. Then he asked the Brahmin, "Do you have any family or friends or relatives?"
"Yes, I have many relatives and friends", the Brahmin replied.
"Do you visit them periodically?" the Buddha asked.
"Of course. I visit them often. "
"Do you carry gifts for them when you visit them?"
"Surely. I never go to see them without a gift," said the Brahmin.
The Buddha asked, "When you give gifts to them, suppose they do not accept them. What would you do with these gifts?"
"I would take them hone and enjoy them with my family." answered the Brahmin.
Then the Buddha said,"Similarly, friend, you gave me a gift. I do not accept it. It is all yours. Take it home and enjoy it with your family."
The man was deeply embarrased. He understood and admired the Buddha's compassionate advice.
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Maybe I was reading too fast but it took me a few seconds to absorb the story. I think it's a nice way of dealing with anger and mindless negativity. Hope this is useful to you too :)
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Saturday, May 13, 2006
Jaded
"You feel jaded right?" I was asked with a tone of self-disappointment.
Yes in some way I am. But my salvation is I believe there is always hope in the world. Nothing lasts forever, not even jaded-ness.
Sometimes we expect ourselves to be a certain type of people, hopeful, cheerful, intelligent and so on. Yet, when life strikes and we fall short of the standards we would like to be, we beat ourselves up over it. This is self-disappointment.
Yes I have asked myself, how can I be such a person? I have felt disappointed at myself for allowing myself to get to such a stage. Thus I realised sometimes when we meet with bad things in life, it is the self-disappointment that hit us even more than the event itself.
Then I realised it's because we always get caught up with being what we would like to be that we forget the person we are and have come to be. Yes we must live with goals and standards to reach for. However, when one only lives for the future or in the past, one will never cherish the preciousness of present. Even if present is less than perfect, it is you and part of your life, something that you can never throw away.
Yes we aspire to be the best that we can be but sometimes we need to accept the reality of present. Embrace all that you have become and continue to walk in hope of a better tomorrow. There is little good in beating yourself up over what is and thus lead you to be so upset that you fail to see tomorrow. Then tomorrow will always be the same as today and it will become a vicious cycle.
There are times you may have realised that while you have tried to continue walking down the lane of life, you left your heart somewhere behind. It may be intentional or unintentional. You may not even realise it that out of your many body clocks, one small one stopped somewhere in memory lane.
When you discover it, you will feel shocked and maybe even self-disappointment. You may want to go back and take your heart back but sometimes it's no longer in your control. However, I believe if you keep walking, someday that heart will move, the clock will begin to tick again, no matter how small the move and how long it takes.
Someday it will.
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Yes in some way I am. But my salvation is I believe there is always hope in the world. Nothing lasts forever, not even jaded-ness.
Sometimes we expect ourselves to be a certain type of people, hopeful, cheerful, intelligent and so on. Yet, when life strikes and we fall short of the standards we would like to be, we beat ourselves up over it. This is self-disappointment.
Yes I have asked myself, how can I be such a person? I have felt disappointed at myself for allowing myself to get to such a stage. Thus I realised sometimes when we meet with bad things in life, it is the self-disappointment that hit us even more than the event itself.
Then I realised it's because we always get caught up with being what we would like to be that we forget the person we are and have come to be. Yes we must live with goals and standards to reach for. However, when one only lives for the future or in the past, one will never cherish the preciousness of present. Even if present is less than perfect, it is you and part of your life, something that you can never throw away.
Yes we aspire to be the best that we can be but sometimes we need to accept the reality of present. Embrace all that you have become and continue to walk in hope of a better tomorrow. There is little good in beating yourself up over what is and thus lead you to be so upset that you fail to see tomorrow. Then tomorrow will always be the same as today and it will become a vicious cycle.
There are times you may have realised that while you have tried to continue walking down the lane of life, you left your heart somewhere behind. It may be intentional or unintentional. You may not even realise it that out of your many body clocks, one small one stopped somewhere in memory lane.
When you discover it, you will feel shocked and maybe even self-disappointment. You may want to go back and take your heart back but sometimes it's no longer in your control. However, I believe if you keep walking, someday that heart will move, the clock will begin to tick again, no matter how small the move and how long it takes.
Someday it will.
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Tuesday, May 09, 2006
Someone Else
How do you deal with the pain when you discover the person you love with all your heart, has someone else in his heart?
It feels excruciating and even more so because it is a situation of which you are "nearly" helpless about.
I remember I wrote about this briefly a few entries back and again I was inspired to write about this again. It may be difficult for some of you to read this but this is from a friend who understands and cares. There is nothing but words of truth, reality and hopefully some comfort eventually here. If you are not ready for it, come back another day.
It is practically of no use for you to hear that "You will find someone else", "You deserve better". People, it really isn't much comfort to be told this and there is no use to pay lip service even if we know it's true. The reason is when you walk away and in your solitude, you will still think "But I want to be with him/her". You may say no but please don't lie, not to yourself.
Why do I call it a nearly helpless situation? You cannot force love to happen. You cannot make the other party love you. You cannot reverse time and hope to do better. You cannot run away from the reality and even if you try to, it haunts you in your solitude at night. You can run anywhere but it will still be there. You can try to ignore it but somehow the tears don't know how to.
I cannot offer much golden words of advice. After all, though I am the one who believes that love exists and will happen someday, has lost much faith. However, there is never true hopelessness in the world. That is something I still believe in. That's why is it still a "nearly" hopeless situation.
You may pray about it and yes sometimes miracles do happen. I have seen it happen before. The person you love may turn around. However, such drama unfortunately, happens to few. Wating for it will bring you nowhere. What is worse than seeing that he or she has moved on to a happy life and you are still stuck in misery? Yes you can say if you love someone, you should be happy for his or her happiness. Yes you may truly feel happy for him or her but come on, it hurts, doesn' it?
Time heals all wounds or so they say. Yes it is true. The question is how long? Some take months and some take years. The one who leaves generally takes a shorter time than the one who gets left behind. It will go away someday. Even if you cannot see how it will, trust in it that it will. The reason is this is the key for recovery. You have to help yourself. No one else can do that for you.
Women tend to be self-sacrificing martyrs when it comes to love. Even in your pain, please remember to love yourself and know that you are loved. Imagine you are a third party trying to love you. Truly ask yourself "If I love myself, what will I do?". I have come to learn something and it is surprising to me whom I got this lesson from: You will not know how to love another until you learn to love yourself first.
I am still trying to comprehend and internalise this simple yet difficult lesson. May you find comfort too. Always know I am here ok? *hugs*
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It feels excruciating and even more so because it is a situation of which you are "nearly" helpless about.
I remember I wrote about this briefly a few entries back and again I was inspired to write about this again. It may be difficult for some of you to read this but this is from a friend who understands and cares. There is nothing but words of truth, reality and hopefully some comfort eventually here. If you are not ready for it, come back another day.
It is practically of no use for you to hear that "You will find someone else", "You deserve better". People, it really isn't much comfort to be told this and there is no use to pay lip service even if we know it's true. The reason is when you walk away and in your solitude, you will still think "But I want to be with him/her". You may say no but please don't lie, not to yourself.
Why do I call it a nearly helpless situation? You cannot force love to happen. You cannot make the other party love you. You cannot reverse time and hope to do better. You cannot run away from the reality and even if you try to, it haunts you in your solitude at night. You can run anywhere but it will still be there. You can try to ignore it but somehow the tears don't know how to.
I cannot offer much golden words of advice. After all, though I am the one who believes that love exists and will happen someday, has lost much faith. However, there is never true hopelessness in the world. That is something I still believe in. That's why is it still a "nearly" hopeless situation.
You may pray about it and yes sometimes miracles do happen. I have seen it happen before. The person you love may turn around. However, such drama unfortunately, happens to few. Wating for it will bring you nowhere. What is worse than seeing that he or she has moved on to a happy life and you are still stuck in misery? Yes you can say if you love someone, you should be happy for his or her happiness. Yes you may truly feel happy for him or her but come on, it hurts, doesn' it?
Time heals all wounds or so they say. Yes it is true. The question is how long? Some take months and some take years. The one who leaves generally takes a shorter time than the one who gets left behind. It will go away someday. Even if you cannot see how it will, trust in it that it will. The reason is this is the key for recovery. You have to help yourself. No one else can do that for you.
Women tend to be self-sacrificing martyrs when it comes to love. Even in your pain, please remember to love yourself and know that you are loved. Imagine you are a third party trying to love you. Truly ask yourself "If I love myself, what will I do?". I have come to learn something and it is surprising to me whom I got this lesson from: You will not know how to love another until you learn to love yourself first.
I am still trying to comprehend and internalise this simple yet difficult lesson. May you find comfort too. Always know I am here ok? *hugs*
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Monday, May 08, 2006
Change of Boxes
Ahhh another recurring topic so I decided to write about it.
The other day, while a couple of us were having supper, someone commented at our variety of interests. We can be smoking cigars, drinking wine and yet end the night with say dim sum and teh tarik. We should be eurasians, part arab, part european, part asian etc.
Confused? Well travelled? Flexible?
This morning I had a conversation with another friend. I was sending her some nice French music. I told her I was a partial audiophile who can be particular about music and sound quality to some extent. She asked me if I was auditory type. Frankly, I always had difficulty answering that question.
I think a lot in pictures so that makes me visual. I am moved my music and sound so that makes me auditory. I am not averse to human touch so I am kinesthetic?
I guess if I really have to isolate it, I am more visual. To that she said it was unusual for a self proclaimed introvert.
That brought me to think. Do we have to live in type A, type B box defined by books?
I realised sometimes we set too many boundaries for ourselves. If book says x+y+z= type a personality, we define ourselves as that. If something seems out of the box, it's strange.
Yes I do agree about statistics that these generalisations are for general public. As people start to travel more and get exposed to different things, isn't it possible for people to like vastly different things and be influenced by different things as well?
I could never fit into these boxes nicely. I always sat on the borderline. I never quite belonged to the extreme in anything. Remember a few entries ago where I mentioned that I was an introvert perhaps even more than an extrovert? People told me after that they were the same. If that is the case, why define yourself according to what is introvert or extrovert? Confused? Adaptable? I prefer to think of it as adaptable. After all, isn't it better to think positive of who you are then trying to squeeze into a box that does not fit you?
So what if I like pop music as much as I like jazz and french and spanish music? So what if I like to sit down at that old coffeeshop for porridge as much as I like to sit in that cool lounge for wine? So what if I like to be alone and need to connect with people too? Maybe people can say it is confusion that leads to nowhere. However, if there is so much in the world, why limit yourself to just those few possibilities?
I can't say this will stay the same for years to come. Maybe somewhere down the road I will start to swing to certain aspects more. That is a possibility too. There are so many possibilities. After all, the only thing that is constant is change isn't it?
The other day, while a couple of us were having supper, someone commented at our variety of interests. We can be smoking cigars, drinking wine and yet end the night with say dim sum and teh tarik. We should be eurasians, part arab, part european, part asian etc.
Confused? Well travelled? Flexible?
This morning I had a conversation with another friend. I was sending her some nice French music. I told her I was a partial audiophile who can be particular about music and sound quality to some extent. She asked me if I was auditory type. Frankly, I always had difficulty answering that question.
I think a lot in pictures so that makes me visual. I am moved my music and sound so that makes me auditory. I am not averse to human touch so I am kinesthetic?
I guess if I really have to isolate it, I am more visual. To that she said it was unusual for a self proclaimed introvert.
That brought me to think. Do we have to live in type A, type B box defined by books?
I realised sometimes we set too many boundaries for ourselves. If book says x+y+z= type a personality, we define ourselves as that. If something seems out of the box, it's strange.
Yes I do agree about statistics that these generalisations are for general public. As people start to travel more and get exposed to different things, isn't it possible for people to like vastly different things and be influenced by different things as well?
I could never fit into these boxes nicely. I always sat on the borderline. I never quite belonged to the extreme in anything. Remember a few entries ago where I mentioned that I was an introvert perhaps even more than an extrovert? People told me after that they were the same. If that is the case, why define yourself according to what is introvert or extrovert? Confused? Adaptable? I prefer to think of it as adaptable. After all, isn't it better to think positive of who you are then trying to squeeze into a box that does not fit you?
So what if I like pop music as much as I like jazz and french and spanish music? So what if I like to sit down at that old coffeeshop for porridge as much as I like to sit in that cool lounge for wine? So what if I like to be alone and need to connect with people too? Maybe people can say it is confusion that leads to nowhere. However, if there is so much in the world, why limit yourself to just those few possibilities?
I can't say this will stay the same for years to come. Maybe somewhere down the road I will start to swing to certain aspects more. That is a possibility too. There are so many possibilities. After all, the only thing that is constant is change isn't it?
Friday, May 05, 2006
Quiz
Got this off a buddy's blog for fun :P
1) Grab the book nearest to you and turn to pg 18, line 4.
Er...for what ah?
2) Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
OK I touched my pillow...next!
3) What was the last thing you watched on TV?
Travel & Living on cable...on great country inns...man your mouth would water at watching them prepare the food! Country style holiday....mmmmmmm
4) Without looking, guess what the time is.
Time to crawl out of bed ??
5) Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
YEP , time to crawl out of bed!
6) With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Kissing a Fool by George Michael.
7) When did you last step outside?
Erm the toilet a few minutes ago? Or salsa last night?
8) Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
Angela's blog :P
9) What are you wearing?
Darling I don't think I should bring it up for public decency *chuckles*
10) Did you dream last night?
Yes I did...strange dream...I was leaving a place and when I came back to take something..people has become emancipated, dancing in a surreal vision and sucking each other's blood...soon the whole place was in flames...really surreal..
11) When did you last laugh?
Er.. minutes ago.
12) What is on the walls of the room you are in?
Photos...cool pic of Domino poster..Mr & Mrs Smith..people kissing heh
13) Seen anything weird lately?
Define weird? The horrible picture I look at in the mirror in the morning doesn't count right?
14) What do you think of this quiz?
Ha bo liao fun :P
15) What is the last film you saw?
Erm....movie? tv? If movie Take The Lead..show me the T-A-N-G-O baby!
16) If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
Woah this is opening pandora's box..I'll never finish writing... farm, apartment overlooking a city, balinese style villa, mansion facing the sea, a convertible hmm maybe a boxster, wines, cigars, clothes, shoes, Honda NSR, a tour round the world..rail, fly, hot-air balloon, you name it...the list goes on and on and on...
17) Tell me something about you I don't know.
I am an alien from Venus. I have a 36-24-36 figure. All Venusians have perfect bodies and skin. My spaceship has been zapped into a size of a earring that I wear frequently. I fly around sometimes for entertainment. Really.
18) If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
Less mindless wars.
19) Do you like to dance?
It seems anything anyone remembers about me is I'm a dancer so I suppose that's a yes?
20) George W. Bush...
I reserve my comments. They say Big Brother is everywhere *looks around*
21) Imagine your first child is a girl. What would you call her?
Something more exotic and princessy-like... like Anastasia I think..or something Greek..I'll ask my hubby..IF i get one.
22) Imagine your first child is a boy. What would you call him?
I used to like the name Nicholas....hmmm maybe that.
23) Would you ever consider living abroad?
I wanna have many homes around the world and stay in each of them for intervals...does that count?
24) What would you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
"I offset your sins enough to give you a marginal entry..Well I am glad you made it anyway!"
25) 4 people who must do this in their blogs.
Chin Fee, Song Fee,Junyu, Edmund.
OK that's for bo liao fun today :)
1) Grab the book nearest to you and turn to pg 18, line 4.
Er...for what ah?
2) Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
OK I touched my pillow...next!
3) What was the last thing you watched on TV?
Travel & Living on cable...on great country inns...man your mouth would water at watching them prepare the food! Country style holiday....mmmmmmm
4) Without looking, guess what the time is.
Time to crawl out of bed ??
5) Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
YEP , time to crawl out of bed!
6) With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Kissing a Fool by George Michael.
7) When did you last step outside?
Erm the toilet a few minutes ago? Or salsa last night?
8) Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
Angela's blog :P
9) What are you wearing?
Darling I don't think I should bring it up for public decency *chuckles*
10) Did you dream last night?
Yes I did...strange dream...I was leaving a place and when I came back to take something..people has become emancipated, dancing in a surreal vision and sucking each other's blood...soon the whole place was in flames...really surreal..
11) When did you last laugh?
Er.. minutes ago.
12) What is on the walls of the room you are in?
Photos...cool pic of Domino poster..Mr & Mrs Smith..people kissing heh
13) Seen anything weird lately?
Define weird? The horrible picture I look at in the mirror in the morning doesn't count right?
14) What do you think of this quiz?
Ha bo liao fun :P
15) What is the last film you saw?
Erm....movie? tv? If movie Take The Lead..show me the T-A-N-G-O baby!
16) If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
Woah this is opening pandora's box..I'll never finish writing... farm, apartment overlooking a city, balinese style villa, mansion facing the sea, a convertible hmm maybe a boxster, wines, cigars, clothes, shoes, Honda NSR, a tour round the world..rail, fly, hot-air balloon, you name it...the list goes on and on and on...
17) Tell me something about you I don't know.
I am an alien from Venus. I have a 36-24-36 figure. All Venusians have perfect bodies and skin. My spaceship has been zapped into a size of a earring that I wear frequently. I fly around sometimes for entertainment. Really.
18) If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
Less mindless wars.
19) Do you like to dance?
It seems anything anyone remembers about me is I'm a dancer so I suppose that's a yes?
20) George W. Bush...
I reserve my comments. They say Big Brother is everywhere *looks around*
21) Imagine your first child is a girl. What would you call her?
Something more exotic and princessy-like... like Anastasia I think..or something Greek..I'll ask my hubby..IF i get one.
22) Imagine your first child is a boy. What would you call him?
I used to like the name Nicholas....hmmm maybe that.
23) Would you ever consider living abroad?
I wanna have many homes around the world and stay in each of them for intervals...does that count?
24) What would you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
"I offset your sins enough to give you a marginal entry..Well I am glad you made it anyway!"
25) 4 people who must do this in their blogs.
Chin Fee, Song Fee,Junyu, Edmund.
OK that's for bo liao fun today :)
050506
Hello...you are here again.
I remember it was rainy but my mood was sunny.
I remember running to the bus stop while the rain threatened to pour in.
I remember a long pause.
I remember a single sentence.
The answer that was also a question.
This is a personal entry which I believe will make little sense to anyone. So if you don't get it, no worries..you are normal :)
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Thursday, May 04, 2006
Legacy
Have you ever thought what you would like to leave behind when you have passed on in life?
A friend of mine shared recently that while he has achieved much in life, he hopes to leave something behind to the people close to him by sharing the knowledge he has learned. This morning I had a chat with a friend who shared that his dream as an architecture student when he was in school was to leave behind signs of his existence even when he has passed on from this world. He shared with my a little scene from a movie where the lead was asked why she got married.
Her reply was "Because there will be a witness to your life".
While it may seem a little strange to hear that but to someone who may have no other kin in this world, it may not seem such a strange notion. Just imagine, what if you had no contact with the outside world, will there be anyone to remember you? Will there be anyone or anything to remember that you once existed, breathed and lived?
Many past greats have had the notion of leaving their mark in history. Some call it ambition. This drove great inventions, achievements and even wars. Even the normal man on the street will hope to be remembered after his death. We all hope to have made a little difference to the world we live in. After all, our existence here should have a purpose isn't it?
To me, a person is not only measured by the things that he has achieved in life but more so the things he leaves behind when he is not longer in this world. There are times when I have heard seemingly low profile people having a huge turnout at his or her funeral. Death does something to people. It makes us realise true good and bad and cherish the things that we may have taken for granted. There is little that we can take with us when we die. We leave this world as we have arrived - alone.
Someone once told me a good way to look at what you hope to achieve in life is to think of the three things you hope to be written on your tombstone when you die. The strange thing is when I thought if it, none of the three things I thought of had anything to do with material achievements. This really makes you think of the things that really drive and move your soul. Try it :)
A friend of mine shared recently that while he has achieved much in life, he hopes to leave something behind to the people close to him by sharing the knowledge he has learned. This morning I had a chat with a friend who shared that his dream as an architecture student when he was in school was to leave behind signs of his existence even when he has passed on from this world. He shared with my a little scene from a movie where the lead was asked why she got married.
Her reply was "Because there will be a witness to your life".
While it may seem a little strange to hear that but to someone who may have no other kin in this world, it may not seem such a strange notion. Just imagine, what if you had no contact with the outside world, will there be anyone to remember you? Will there be anyone or anything to remember that you once existed, breathed and lived?
Many past greats have had the notion of leaving their mark in history. Some call it ambition. This drove great inventions, achievements and even wars. Even the normal man on the street will hope to be remembered after his death. We all hope to have made a little difference to the world we live in. After all, our existence here should have a purpose isn't it?
To me, a person is not only measured by the things that he has achieved in life but more so the things he leaves behind when he is not longer in this world. There are times when I have heard seemingly low profile people having a huge turnout at his or her funeral. Death does something to people. It makes us realise true good and bad and cherish the things that we may have taken for granted. There is little that we can take with us when we die. We leave this world as we have arrived - alone.
Someone once told me a good way to look at what you hope to achieve in life is to think of the three things you hope to be written on your tombstone when you die. The strange thing is when I thought if it, none of the three things I thought of had anything to do with material achievements. This really makes you think of the things that really drive and move your soul. Try it :)
Monday, May 01, 2006
Cracks
I read in a book today that as humans we feel upset when we don't have something and also feel upset when we do get it. Take love for example. You will feel sad when you do not have the love of the one you love yet when you are finally together, you live in fear he or she will love someone else. Sure this may be a case of mistrust and unnecessary fear, but it is very real for many people isn't it?
Trust is something that has to be earned. It is something that once broken will be hard to mend. Even if one can mend it, cracks remain. They say love conquers all but sadly, love sometimes fails to conquer fear. I would like to share a simple story. A story that you and I may have experienced through a friend or first hand.
You are in love with someone. Everything goes well till time wears out the relationship. You thought you didn't love that person anymore. You do something wrong. You want out. The other person is hearbroken. The other person tries his or her best to salvage the relationship. You agree to stay on.
Time goes by. You realise you didn't love him or her any less than you thought and you very much like to be with him or her. However, you notice something is wrong with the other person. You can feel he or she still cares yet there is something very foreign and distant. One day, the other person tells him he or she cannot continue anymore. The broken trust has a crack that cannot be mended.
We all make mistakes. We all hope to be forgiven when we do. I know I have. Sometimes in a spur of moment, impulse or passion, we step outside a line we know, thinking it is the line we wish to cross. Sometimes we realise much later what was the thing that was really important.
To all of you out there who may be contemplating or are already in a compromising situation, please think a little deeper about the things you throw away when you do step out. I am not saying it is always wrong. Sometimes we do need to cast away some things. The only thing is knowing that you are ready to lose the things you stand to lose and that you will have no regrets. Should there be regrets, may you find it in your heart to find peace. To me, sadly, regret is one of the hardest things to get over. Regret haunts people. It does.
May angels guide your every step and decision.
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The Interview With God
I truly love this and once in a while I will go watch this presentation again to remind myself of the things that are truly important. I wanted to paste the text here but I really think it will be best to watch it yourself, regardless of what religion you may believe in. Please view presentation at www.theinterviewwithgod.com .
The pictures and music are lovely...not to mention the wonderful messages :)
The pictures and music are lovely...not to mention the wonderful messages :)
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